11.17.2010

Psalm 119:18

Welcome Back avid readers, sorry for the delay... in case you weren't sure the 'S' in Bradley S Robertson stands for side-tracked... Hopefully I'll be making more time for more frequent posts. I don't know that you all need to read these, but I sure need to write them.... here goes nothing....

Happiness. Is. Fleeting.

But does it have to be that way? To quote a television show, which I normally don't do, "Happiness is a mood, not a destination". We can't arrive at happiness, it's not something we can achieve, it's something we choose. Now I know from experience that a lot of people are going to disagree with me on this whole idea. But hear me out first. I'm not saying that it's insanely easy to be happy, not at all. You can't always wake up in the morning and say "I'm going to be happy all day today, no questions asked!".... WRONG! At the same time though, you don't wake up and say "I don't feel like driving to happiness today, it's not on the map, it's a bit out of the way, I think maybe I'll go there tomorrow." Most of my readers are probably wondering... Where is he going with this? Well, keep reading and you'll find out.

Happiness. Is. Optional.

But it's not always an option right away. I know that some days I wake up, and I pray and pray for happiness, for hope, for the energy to get out of bed and get through the day. Some days that's not what God wants for me, I don't mean He wants me to be unhappy. However, I've said this so many times in this blog I'm afraid to write it again... at the risk of someone destroying my macbook (check youtube), I will say it again... James 1:2-4 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds. For the testing of your faith develops perseverance, perseverance must finish it's work so you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." It's what it is. Some days you wake up and feel nothing, or everything, or right in the middle. There is a reason. In my opinion, sometimes it's God's way of saying... "HEY YOU! Lean on me, let me be the light to your path (Psalm 119:105)" We should listen, it's a difficult concept to grasp but we should.

Your.Father.Is.Always.Right.

At 21 years old there is one thing I have learned. My earthly Father isn't always right, but if I tell him he is, my life is much better :). I mean, let's be honest, a lot of the time he knows what he's talking about and admitting that then is great, he loves it. BUT when I admit he's right (even though I know he's not) it makes him feel even better, he feels like he's triumphed. It's a man thing. What's the Lesson from this? If our earthly Father is often right... think about how often our Heavenly Father is right... ALL THE TIME! The problem is we don't always see it, in fact a lot of times we don't see it. Which leads me to the Title of this post...
Psalm 119:18 - "Open my eyes to see, the wonderful truths in your instructions".
Seriously. I know that it's hard to believe that we aren't right, that we can't see things that are right before us. But most of the time we are blind to what God is trying to teach us. and I learned that the hard way recently.

I.Realized.A.Downfall.

A couple of weekends ago I realized a HUGE downfall of my own. I decided to volunteer at Jesus Prom at Southland. Jesus Prom is a prom for mentally/physically disabled people, put on at the church, that gives everyone a chance to experience something that a lot of them didn't get to experience when they were 18, or won't get to experience at 18 in the usual social setting that is a prom. This way they get too and they are surrounded by friends, family, and people that are just there to love them. I signed up because I wanted to be one of those people. I wasn't quite suited to be one of those people, and not that I didn't love them, it was just... hard. It was harder than I ever thought it would be, it was a whole new experience, riddled with challenges, but because of God, I got through it.

I'm. Unsure.

I don't know where I'm going, I don't always understand where I've been, but I know that God will lead me anywhere I am supposed to go, He's my father and He will never leave me. I love you all, and I hope I can love you all the way God loves us, unconditionally and completely without judgment.